On one of my recent walks, I took the picture featured above. That picture resonated deeply with an energy that I feel, right before I realise I have to stop and take a break to reset, recharge, stop and do a lot of self-care. You know that feeling when your living in a whirlwind or the opposite, when things are on pause and nothing is moving internally. There’s a stuck feeling. I take it as a que to haul myself off to someplace where I can be with those feelings, talk about them, be with them and most importantly, feel them. Intense feelings hold information, to get to the information, one first has to find it. Like research, when you dive in and find masses of information. You look for that one piece that answers your inquiry, leading to several more.
That picture resonates with that feeling. As I stood there reflecting, thinking somewhere in the back of my mind, I wonder what passers-by must think of my stillness in a moment. Just stopping and pausing to reflect. In the front of my mind was the clear view of not being able to see the whole picture. The fog is in the way. All I could see was visions of a snowy grassland. And that’s how it can be, when feelings are loud and intense, all you can see is them, so very clearly. There’s a communication, of dancing with those feelings. I mean, everyone does it in one way or another, who can say when they’ve been sad for reasons unknown, they haven’t had a good cry, under a blanket, on the sofa, watching Robin Williams in Goodwill Hunting saying repeatedly, ’It’s not your fault’.
The after affect once that feeling is felt, and your mind begins to see clearly what it is that made you feel that way in first place. Then suddenly you notice in the picture the faded lights. If you give yourself patience, time and reflection, the fog will clear, because it will. And then you have a clear picture with choices of where to go from this point, you see potential and have options.
Therapy can help, a safe space with no judgements.
Going back the following day, it was beautiful, just like hindsight.